“Dear God, Heal me,” is sometimes the first thing I say when I wake up in the mornings. Though I’m doing much better than I was several months ago, it’s still a bit tough in the mornings. You see, in the course of a year I lost two of the closest people to me, one to death and the other to divorce. I lost my mother, suddenly, in January ’09 and my (ex) spouse by the end of that same year. Talk about wounds? I can’t begin to tell you how gaping the wounds are. But, I can tell you that during this time I have dealt with mounds of emotional upheaval and layers of issues and have experienced the full range of emotions of fear, deep sadness, anger, depression, loneliness, confusion, disappointment, denial, and exasperation, and these are just to name a few.
I remember, vaguely, but remember nonetheless, the day it dawned on me that I was wounded and needed healing. It came to me out of nowhere it seemed. I’d been so busy dealing with my problems, trying to solve them and maintain some sense of normalcy to life that I’d completely overlooked my inner self and my personal, internal need. I knew I was hurting, that was no secret, but, it was just par for the course, just came with the territory I figured, until that day I paused long enough to realize---I’m hurting...and need healing.
I could only wonder where that healing might come from. I knew I couldn’t do it for myself, and I knew of no one else in the world who could give to me the kind of healing I needed. That’s when I knew it, my healing was going to have to be a journey with the Divine One. Only my Creator could fix what was broken and wounded in me. That day I prayed to God- “Lord, I’m hurting and need healing, will you heal me please? And, since that time, though I’m far from being completely healed, He’s been faithful to the task. Step by step, day by day, a little bit at a time, He’s healing me.
Acknowledging your pain and your need of healing is the first step towards healing. After you’ve acknowledged where you are, ask God to bring about the healing you need and then trust Him from there. The Psalmist says- “Have mercy upon me, O Lord; for I am weak: O Lord heal me; for my bones are vexed.” [Psalms 6:2, KJV] Even he understood the importance of recognizing his weakness and asking God for help. What kinds of pain have you endured? Are you hurting, suffering, feeling tired or hopeless? There’s help for that, I know because I'm experiencing it myself. Although you don’t have to answer these questions here on this blog (although I do invite you to share as you see fit), the one thing I will encourage you to do is- pause for a minute today, take inventory of your pain, acknowledge your need of healing, ask God to heal you, and then let Him take it from there. Trust Him, He’s faithful. Once you have, we’d love to hear your story here.
Until next time, blessings and peace to you,
Stephanie
Text: Psalm 6:2
Song: I Need You Now- Smokie Norful
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I am absolutely sure you are going to facilitate a lot of healing for the hearts and minds of many through your new blog. You encourage people to look within their own hearts to find their own joy. Joy is a journey. It doesn't always come easily. But the wisdom gained through the experience of traveling the healing path can transform lives, thought patterns, and emotional baggage. I hope you write often. The challenge to the reader is evident. Learn to let go, let God, and begin to move forward in self-discovery. We shall know them by their fruits!
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